and so it goes.....

With my previous post being so low, and feeling alone; I will attempt to lighten the mood a bit.  I blog mainly for memories.  I have kept a journal for years, needing to remember what I felt true in the moment.  I enjoy writing.  I admire authors, especially those who care for multiple characters in the series of books they complete.  I enjoy the stories, but to be more truthful I really enjoy the characters more.  If the author does not gift their characters personality then I usually toss the book aside quickly.  Janet Evanovich not only is humorous, but you really know each of her characters.  When  a great series like Stephanie Plum is made into a movie; I believe most of the population knew it would bomb at the box office simply because of the actors they chose to play each character.  Shonda Rhimes is another writer I enjoy.  I use to watch all her shows; Grey's, Scandal, How to get away with murder...etc.  In my opinion, she's spreading herself too thin, and her characters are suffering.  So I no longer watch as much television, which is not at all a great loss.   I would rather watch a cooking program than what the "industry" calls entertainment.  Sure there are programs I enjoy, but honestly most is too vulgar to sit thru.

Of course to pass along the time I really enjoy crocheting.  My latest creation is this Amigurumi gourd set.



 It's simple stitching, quick, but harder on my hands/fingers to recover.  I want to make Indian corn to bring a variety as well as a bit more color to the arrangement.  I have my eyes on the next project.  These cute scrubbies.  I think I'll add them to a gift basket for my mom.  I love getting different little things for a gift basket.  My plan is to go to my favorite local farm; gather jams, jellies, wine, etc.  Hopefully, I can get these done in time.

Finally, an update on Eldest. Each dialysis day is different.  Sometimes it's easy no issues, other times he's totally wiped out.  Yesterday was a difficult day, but we also had the opportunity to meet the surgeon that will be doing a procedure soon.  We just need to confirm what type of dialysis we want to continue.  We found out another treatment option was done at home dialysis which sounded ideal, but I do not think Eldest would really be as dedicated to the set up at home as with his current setting.  I know hubby & I could handle the set up, but sterilization is primary, we would need to trust Eldest not to get up during the night causing a disruption with the dialysis procedure, and honestly I'm not up for watching him 8 hours each night then sleep thru the day. 

I cancelled the Thanksgiving plans with the extended family members. This is the holiday I usually host, but dialysis rules our home now, and that weeks schedule is going to be super hectic.  I finally learned to say no, it's a bit difficult to not feel bad, but it is a learning process for me.  I know that I'm physically not able to do ALL, but my WANT to do it all is still hollering at me.